Wandering Love

The life of a householder.....a way of existing, that is at odds with the life of an occultist. Tis a constant tension for me....there is always some part of my heart that desires stability and routine, but my 1st love is the path. Lately, I've been thinking on the life of Paganini, widely acknowledged, as the greatest violinist ever. He drank, gambled, womanized and died in his 50s.......yet was also an absolute master of his craft and untethered from norms. The Devil's Violinist.....it's a powerful and romantic vision, a way that calls to my heart. Most famous writers live a similar way.....deeply flawed.....yet equally devoted. The dream of a wanderer drenched in his craft....it's something to meditate upon. I've still yet to finish Casanova's memoirs.     

Living this type of liminal life.....it's important to be able to drop everything at a moments notice. It occurred to me, that I should never own a house, in a way that is burdensome. Meaning that if I ever purchase a house.....it must be to a degree, in which I have enough money to dispose of it in an instant. Never putting myself in a situation, in which I'm over-leveraged and owning a house would become a disadvantage. Same rule of thumb, can also be applied to having children.....never have kids in a manner, in which they are financially difficult to support, thus a wedge in my mind and a restriction on my flexibility. Still, despite my efforts.....my capacity to live this "free flowing" way.......is inept.....need more time, to free this heart. 

Whips and Blades
I've previously noted, how the male sexual arcana (Inguz), has a connection to blades and it eventually becomes serpentine. Additionally, I've taken note that when a women's sacral vortex "spins", it has a "drawing" quality that tugs on the astral. Lately, I've noticed other layers of feminine sexual kung fu.....a whip like energy that comes out of a women's sacral and "wraps" around its target, causing a similar "pulling" effect. Its an interesting phenomena, it seems that only women who are sexually empowered manifest this "whip" quality.  

Speaking of sexually empowered, I devised some new sex tech in the form of a mantra for men, I call it the "3 Serpent Mantra". It's great if you wish to level up your sexual kung fu. A broad energy, that can be used in any cycle. Have fun. 

Su Ing Razna 

 
Messages of Love

Several months ago, I had an encounter with a women where I was completely sexually defeated.....yet there was no sex involved. It was an encounter in which I was merely in the presence of this chick and her sexual energy was so powerful, that it literally fried my circuitry.....had to go ground and cool myself off afterwards. That being said, it showed me a lot of my own weaknesses, particularly in the Sex Vortex in the Water Qi system. Immediately, I went into the Sex vortex and focused on smoothing out the "spin".....it helped immensely and strengthened my capacity to handle massive influxes of sexual energy. 

Furthermore, when it comes to chakras, I've focused on methods for "general" cleansing.....but this experienced taught me about greater customization for cleansing methods and how by approaching from different angles, you get different results. By smoothing out the spin....I lose less energy in exchanges with women, also conversation and lovemaking are more relaxed.  The notion of having a more flowing water qi.....being "cool"......its a sloppy expression, but the movie Be Cool (2005) with John Travolta.....struggles to convey that qi.  


On other "messages", I've observed that some women who've had energy exchanges with me, "hold" my qi inside (sacral and feminine core) them for an indefinite period of time.....versus it naturally cycling through there channels over a period of months. I don't quite understand why this occurs with some women but not others....needs more studying. 

A funny thing happened recently, where a women whom I care about deeply, sent me some loving feelings while I was asleep. In my dream, it appeared as a friendly cow that I pet and hugged. Waking up and analyzing that qi trail....funny stuff. 


Mature Parasite

I had the pleasure of witnessing a very mature parasitic intelligence, in the form of a women who I briefly had as a housemate. Twas interesting to watch, she had a very dark aura and was constantly draining all the qi in the surrounding atmosphere. Most immature parasitic forms (unconsciously/consciously) seek to stir up drama, anger and other volatile feelings, so they can feed off the ensuing chaos. On the other hand, this women was most likely in her 60s and had obviously been doing this type of energy manipulation for a long time and was subtle in her machinations (I made sure to steer clear). I can only imagine how prolific she was in her youth, twas interesting to observe. That's all for this post, cheers.